Been thinking alot about the past lately. Mainly about my past relationships or almost relationships. Wondering why i did what i did and why i still do it. Some of us tend to take it for granted that those that are close to us will remain there, waiting for us to go back to them. Truth is they don't, and once you realise this and you figure out that they matter the most to you.. it's too late. They've gone.
Either that or they are there, right there in front of you. Waiting for you, but you fear. Fear the unknown of what will happen. Fear the thought of getting hurt. Fear to commit. And you run away from all of it, leave them hanging and broken. You run and once you stop running to catch your breath, you realise how much you have hurt that person.
Why is it so hard to let someone in? Why is so hard to trust ? Why is it so hard to commit ? Why is it so hard to not keep thinking that this person will one day break your heart ? Why is it so hard to allow yourself to be loved or even to love ?
Why ?
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Anushya,18. Never really blogged before. Oh well, there is always a first for everything.
"You can avoid reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding reality."
- Ayn Rand (1905-1982)
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